Tell everyone you know: “My happiness depends on me, so you’re off the hook.” And then demonstrate it. Be happy, no matter what they’re doing. Practice feeling good, no matter what. And before you know it, you will not give anyone else responsibility for the way you feel - and then, you’ll love them all. Because the only reason you don’t love them, is because you’re using them as your excuse to not feel good.
"God really knows what He’s doing. No looking back, beloved. Your dreams truly are coming true. Don’t give up. God makes all things possible. Just rest in Him. His faithfulness, grace, and love do not need your input. Just let Him work."
You have to believe in yourself. That’s the only way you are going to push yourself further.
This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.